Doin' it the right way

Hey y'all. This is the first of many posts on this brand new, shiny blog!

I'd like to say that I'm one of those people who finds joy in small things. And those little things are... well... everywhere. The way a flower smells, a hot cup of fresh chai, looking out my window and seeing the beautiful views Asheville has to offer, the way this song sounds and makes me feel, makes me remember... Beauty is everywhere and in everything, sometimes people just have trouble seeing it. Even myself. So here I go on my quest to remember why I love life in the first place and to do my best at the one thing everyone only has one of: their life. Sometimes I forget...



This is me in the beautiful land that I live in and love so much! I am fortunate to have grown up here. Every time I go away and return, these mountains remind me of why I don't want to leave. These mountains are my home, and despite how I may complain about this city at times, it is so beautiful here...



So people who know me know that in these past couple of years I've been in a sort of life slump. On the one hand, I'm really learning to accept and love myself for who I've become (and also found an amazing partner who feels the same way about me), but on the other, I'm in this life/career dilemma. I know one thing, that music should always and will always be a part of who I am and of my everyday life. I'm just again confused as to whether or not I want it to be my career... If I could play music, paint, draw, sing, teach, frolic, give, and love for a career, I would. I've always been so against teaching music, but now I'm wondering if it's not what I'm meant to do. Everyone has always told me I would make a great teacher, but I would shrug them off thinking, "No, that's what musicians do when they're not good enough to perform..." I'm learning that the life of a performer may not be for me. I've always kind of been a homebody at times and with the life of a musician comes the life of travel. I'm just not sure if that is for me.

This sort of uncertainty has lead me to become lazy and comfortable with things in my life that I should not be. I made a huge change around 6 months ago, but I still have not changed much about this habit that is becoming me. I want to be healthy, happy, and prosperous. I will be all of these things, but I need to make a change and I need to do it now. On my own accord. I am very happy right now, but I know that to continue being this happy means I need to make some changes.

I know I can do it, I will do it, and I am so lucky to have amazing people cheering me on in every sense.